Here's what I posted there to start things off....... Keeping it honest ......
To start out, here's what I put on my profile bio...... I'm 39, married & have 2 daughters & 3 dogs. I was never overweight until I was pregnant with our first child. After that, I never got much of the weight off and b/c of some circumstances I started emotional eating. My highest weight was 310 in 20008. I had gastric sleeve surgery in May 2012 and lost 100 lbs (I was 279 before surgery). I got down to 178 lbs in October 2013, but then started snacking and gaining again. I'm now back up at 200 lbs & need to get back on track, so I joined a Challenge Group here on Beachbody for August 2014.
Well, I actually turn 39 tomorrow (8/1), but wanted to get things started today since I just placed my order for the Shaun T Dance Challenge Pack. A few months ago, I met my Beachbody Coach on Facebook. She has continued to have special groups and such, but I hadn't joined one yet because of finances. I'm so frustrated with myself right now that I decided I NEEDED to join her group for August. I need the accountability factor to push myself to reach my goals.
In 2010, I returned to college to pursue my lifelong dream of becoming a high school Spanish teacher. I just graduated in May 2014, and will be doing my student teaching in a local high school this fall. I've already passed my teacher certification tests, but need to do student teaching in order to be a certified teacher.
In May 2012, I had gastric sleeve surgery. It was the best thing I've ever done for myself. If you want to see my journey, you can check out the blog I made at mygastricsleevelife.blogspot.com. I did really well at blogging at the beginning of my journey, but slacked off in the past year due to stresses at school. As stated in my little bio paragraph, I was 279 lbs before surgery. In October 2013, I got down to 178 lbs, but then I started snacking and letting my food addiciton creep back in due to stress. Now I'm back up around 200 lbs. I keep fluctuating between 195-205 the past few months.
I keep telling myself I need to get back to my surgeon's guidelines of just having 3 meals per day and protein drinks or water between meals. When I started snacking again, I didn't get as much fluid in and it just started a horrible habit again. Even though I can still only eat a cup or so of food at any given time, I've gotten into the icky habit of "grazing" and have more snacks and not as much water/protein as I should be getting. I also stopped exercising with the excuse of time constraints and stress and not feeling well (even though deep down I know that I feel better when I exercise). I learned a long time ago that I do much better with weight loss when I exercise than when I don't.
Originally, my plan was to get back to exercising and my surgeon's meal guidelines after graduation back in May, especially since I'm not working this summer and have plenty of time to get back to it. However, without having a set schedule and routine, it is much harder to stay motivated and to stay away from snacks & push myself to exercise. We had 2 dogs, and just got a new puppy at the beginning of July, so we have 3 dogs who would love walks, but we're horrible at doing that too. Actually, the puppy can start going for walks around the neighborhood next week, and we are planning on doing that with him to get him used ot a leash and such.... but we've been horrible at taking our other dogs for walks.
Anyway, because of completely failing at motivating myself, because of letting my food addiction creep back in, and because of old habits of destroying my self-esteem have started popping up again, I finally decided enough was enough so I decided to join my coach's Challenge Group for August & just placed my order today (with expedited shipping). I may not have the order by Monday when the challenge starts, but Monday will still be the start of getting back on track. I'm looking forward to the support of my Beachbody coach and challenge group. I need to get back on track because I did not go through surgery to fail!! I also don't want to be this heavy for my career as a high school Spanish teacher.